"D"iscovery Day- May 15th, 2008

A small but interesting detail- the morning of May 14th, I was shopping on Amazon.com and happened to see that they had pregnancy tests that you could order online and have shipped to you. I have a "prime" account with Amazon, which means I get free 2 day shipping, and $1.99 overnight shipping. Still in disbelief, I casually concluded that I could have a pregnancy test overnighted to me, saving the anxiety of walking through the drugstore. I clicked "ship overnight" and then wondered, why the heck didn't I just go down to the drugstore? It was all I could think about that day, but never to waste an extra dime (already regretting the $1.99 overnight fee) I waited.

The afternoon of May 15th, I worked from home, waiting for the small package to arrive. Paul and I agreed that I'd wait for him to get home to do it, as I might faint if I were alone! Well, 3pm came and passed, then 4pm, then 5pm, and still no package! Dangit- I had paid an extra $1.99, the least you would think is that someone up at Amazon would see a rush order of a pregnancy test, and get off his tail to mail off the package, pronto! No, I learned, when I went onto the Amazon site, where I recieved an email with a credit of $1.99, for my troubles of not recieving my package on time. The irony here is that I've NEVER recieved a late package from amazon!

Infuriated (and clearly hormonal already) I raced down to the drugstore, and bought a 2 pack, which I learned was the right choice, as I'd later justified that I'd needed to run two tests, just to make sure.

Paul stood in the doorway, while I took care of buisness. I laid the test on the counter, and we sat. For what felt like a lifetime, and yet within 25 seconds we already see a faint 2nd line appearing. I didn't even need to wait the 3 minutes- within less than one minute we knew. We smile, then we gaze, then we have a small panic attack together, then we laugh and cry. We are both Aries, meaning that we have wildly high expectations and set a high bar for ourselves as parents, which can cause a bit of anxiety to realize that it is really real. It's not in a few years, not after this summer, no- it's right now.

The good news is, we've had such great examples of parents to learn from. And we see how our brothers and sisters families are so great. And we have just a few friends who've started families already, and they have been great to watch as well. So, we've done a lot of watching...Now it's our turn, I suppose.

Mother's Day, May 11th 2008

So, Mother's Day occured this year on May 11th, 2008. This year was an especially important one for Paul and I, as my Mom (the champ) has recovered quite well from her diagnosis and treatment for breast cancer. Mom, Julie and I were relaxing upstairs at my parents' house, after a family church service, and bbq lunch afterwards. Paul was playing downstairs with our newphews and nieces, while talkin' shop with Dad. It was nice to just relax, mom, sis, and I.

I briefly shared with mom and sis that I was a bit "late" this month, and expectedly my sister wanted to race to the drug store to get a pregnancy test. She loved being pregnant, in fact by my age she had already popped our her third, and she loves being a mom (she's a great one too). Anyhow, I didn't even take it seriously at the time, thinking it was just all of the exercise and diet change from this past month- I was working towards swimsuit season, and being a bridesmaid in my brother's wedding! Yeah- that's it- that causes you to be a few days late, right?

We only spoke about it for a few minutes, at most, but I won't forget that moment. It was the first time that I was even 10% convinced that this might be really real. For the next few days, I became more and more worried, it was 4 days late, then 5, then 6, then 7, and by the 8th day, it was inevitible, off to the drug store I went...